God consumes me in a way that is yes

The other day i was in a lecture and started doodling hearts and flowers. now this scared me a bit because i doodle those when i'm in lyk/crushing on someone. n i was lyk wait , but who am i in love with? and i started listening to the lecture again and forgot about it . Until sometime later there i am doodling again and im lyk what ? whats going on ? and then i tried to think back to what i was thinking about when i doodled and i realised it was a praise song and it was lyk OH , Oh, i think i'm in love with Jesus ( JC). i mean i'd been praying to fall in love with Him for a long time , but i wasnt expecting it and then BAM here it is i'm in love.

And its amazing, it's better than any other kind of love i've felt before. that kind of love was consuming but not in a good way, you got distracted in the middle of a test thinking about something stupid like his smile (true story , aarg the shame), you fell hopelessly and deeply for some1 who didnt really care at all and invested yourself way 2 much ( again true story and again the shame). But this time it's different because He loves me way more than i could ever love Him , His love is not mutually exclusive therefore loving Him doesn't mean loving any1 else less or doing anything else worse , because to love Him is to honour Him in every aspect of my life. it means being the me that He intended me to be , using all the talents that He equipped me with. So now like a song am consumed and like a poem it is in a way that is yes

hello moto me world

Yay , i have blog , i have blog , whoot whoot , part Ay ( u know that thing before Part B). Any way right i will try to be serious for just a little bit and use realish English for today. i'm sure you're wondering about the name well it's something that i say , not the smooshy part but the monkey-cow part. It's a term of endearment for some-one who's lovely ,but is just being a silly head in the moment . And the smooshy bit is well just to bring across that sense of cuddleness that's me . I have snugggleness factor of ten according to some and an amazing touchability theory that i'll tell you about later , but 4 now i am your smooshy cow-monkey / monkey-cow.
xoxox